Dear Jess

I don't know whats wrong. But something really is.

After work today, I went and smoked a lot of pot. I don't know why. I don't really care. I miss interacting with people. I can't handle this stress. I'm falling apart.

While I was at work, the officer who picked me up from there, last time, came in for a sandwich. It scared me a lot, because I'm paranoid and my hands are all scarred up.

I'm sorry.

I wish I could focus or not focus or something. I'm just, lost.

Love always
Nerl

at last at last

Dear Jess

Today has been long. Had to spend the night at my mothers, so I couldn't send you a letter. But I did get to sleep in and have pancakes for breakfast. But that being said, I didn't have my ulcer meds, so it hurt.

Then I went on a walk. The longest I've been on in a while. Was with my new friend, Laura. I worry about her. We walked for hours, and talked. Talked about everything, though I mostly just listened.

Sometimes I forget I can still talk.

I miss you. I miss you.

I'm so lonely. You're the only person I love, and I wish I could talk to you more. But for you, I'll wait. I'll spend all my time on you. You're worth it, for me.

I just wish I had people in my life, instead of being shut up in my room every night. I don't like being stuck in a house with people who resent me. I'm just so depressed tonight. I'm crying.

I love you, I miss you, I need you, and I'll wait for you.

Love always
Nerl