Dear Jess

Today has been horrid on me.

I don't even want to talk about it. It was just an infuriating day. I'm beyond stressed and my stomach is reminding me it. I miss you.

I feel like I'm losing everyone. Between work and skating and other plans and moving my dad's girlfriend in and trying to make plans I simply have nothing left. Nothing for me, nothing for Rebeca, nothing for anyone. I am trying to go to a clinic. Believe me I am. But I simply can't ditch my father now that he has made plans for me. I can't deal with his anger bullshit right now... Not that lifting heavy things helps anymore than that.

I'll deal with it.

Sometimes we sacrifice ourselves, for the others happiness.

But I will be fine. That's what I do. I survive, and keep walking.

Love always
Nerl