One day at a time

Dear Jess

Ow.

I've been suffering the day. I've been having a feeling of dread floating around me for a long time, now. It's the reason I can't sleep at night. Now it has a face, and I'm more worried then ever.

She had scars, Jess.

Not just old, but new.

It hurt me even more then just her depression. It scares me. It made me feel hollow, like before. When you were... I don't think I can sleep tonight. Not tonight. I'm sorry, I wish I could.

I'm glad I could talk to you, today. It makes everything a little easier to deal with. I've missed you so, so, very much.

Everything seems like its underwater. Everything is slow and baggy. A second could take an hour, but an hour could pass like nothing. I hope you understand. I've been up too long. Time doesn't really, connect anymore. It's all slipping. I really need to sleep.

Maybe I'll get more sleep, soon. I know what I was fearing, so now I can face it and cope. I just hope I can help her. I hope I can help me. I hope I haven't ruined everything.

I'm glad you sent a letter in return. It really helps to hear from you. I hope Maria is feeling better, soon. I wish we could have another phone call like that. You, me, and Ryan, till one am.

This bird flies with a broken wing, now. I miss you.

Love always
Nerl

P.S.
I didn't really notice any mistakes. It's ok if there were any.