Nothing like waiting

Dear Jess

Again something is going to happen. And I really wish it wouldn't. I can't handle this, already. Why does it have to get harder? I know it'll be my fault, though. I know that much.

The best part is, I'll barely ever get to see her at all for the next month or longer. And her phone has now been pretty much permanently taken away. So there is no contact, there is no time together, there is nothing left. And I'm going to cry.

But I'll survive. I'll survive because that's all I can do.

I hope the doctors are nice, again.

Love always
Nerl